Are ya feelin' Lucky Punk?

Time to go in...

2008-06-04T01:31:00.000-07:00

Wah, finally my turn liao. To serve the National Service...
Can't believe I haven't update here for long long time.

It's tough to imagine how things would be. But nice change.

Nothing much to do these days anyway. Work seems tough to find even. Really nice to see the IBP films on Projections 08. It's much more interesting than i expected, seems like KINO is something for you guys to be proud of.

Damn excited and damn anxious. Hopefully turns out for the best.

Seeya in two weeks!!!

I'm Updating quite little recently

2008-03-12T10:39:00.001-07:00

Have been pretty busy with shoot and all for outside. But I don't know what to do with the rest of my life. Seriously. Need to figure out.

I'm Updating quite abit.

2008-01-19T10:24:00.000-08:00

I notice recently updating quite abit. Maybe due to the fact that I have more thoughts pouring in as Poly draws to an end.

Was talking to a friend of mine about the future, like what am I going to do after school. My answer for now is pretty easy because I can always say, ARMY.

But then they continue by asking, what about after that?

That's a little tougher to answer. I think at this point I have to realize that I might go a route that I have sometimes mocked at, doing a admin job, working somewhere at Raffles Place (considering if I am even lucky).

It's weird for me to consider what I truly want to do, seeing how it' s like beginning of your full time working life. The fact that my father just retired does not help seeing how long it would take me to get to that point.

I want to mature, grow up, be reliable, handle my CPF, know how my Medishield works, pay the water bills and all that. But still I can't see myself doing all that.

But another part of me, just wish to make films that people also want to make. Together. At least for now.

I seriously don't know how things will turn out. Check back with me in 5 years.

As you grow older but not wiser...

2008-01-18T09:31:00.000-08:00

As you grow you realize a couple of thing:

- Good looking people go damn far in life even if their attitude sucks.

- Life is as uncertain as you and me, it's never not fair or fair. It just is.

-The importance of going with the flow.

-If you think it's like in the movies where the guy that does not get the girl he liked because he lost to the other guy and by some miracle they end up together because they were meant for each other. (switch sexes where applicable) It is seriously mistaken.

-You can never truly be right.

- Friends are people there at the right place at the right time.

-Falling in love is also the same thing

Taking that trip around

2008-01-17T08:01:00.000-08:00

It's interesting to note the amount of effect some people could have on other people's lives without knowing it.
One prime example would be, liking a person.
The person you like affects the way you behave, dress and think for at least around this person. And later in your life, depending on the overall experience with this person, it leaves your personal impression of the person which tends to also affect your impression of other people that are similar to this individual.

I read a friend's blog of mine, who said it was weird why guys and girls talk differently when they are writing online or reflecting on blogs such as this.

One thought comes to mind is that, for me at least, is the fact that I have more time to think about my response and opinions. In simple terms is about being more clear minded. Whereas when I am caught up in a vocal conversation, I might go with more of my feelings then compared to being more reflective.

Whereas for girls I guess they are able to process and come up with their opinions pretty much what they think of the subject matter than and there.

Being caught up in the moment. That's basically how it goes, causing us to either feel stupid or regret later.

Filling in the spaces.

2008-01-15T09:45:00.000-08:00

The world gets more ambigious as we get older. Life is a damn funny thing, when you are young and full of energy, you are spending time figuring out things and learning from mistakes. But when you become older, things become more clear, you are too old and exhausted to do anything about it. Strange way of balancing itself out.

Waking up in the morning, hearing my grandmother shouting at me to get up. Walking groggily to the toilet, noticing my brother faithfully sitting in his chair as he studies his books. The smell of colgate and frying from the kitchen as my grandmother is cooking. Looking out the window as the irritating sun shines on the recently washed clothing. I look at the Biopolis buildings as another day starts.

Even if yesterday, today, tomorrow suck, there's always this worth remembering.

You're right Zong Hui, The Calling "Our Lives" made sense to me.

2008

2008-01-10T07:29:00.000-08:00

Wah seh I really didn' t think I was going to really touch this blog today. It's my last year of poly and now remembering my first entry of this blog it was pretty naive of me back then to think the way I did.

As people we grow older but we not necessarily get any wiser. Thinking about the fact that we would learn more things from the experiences we have gained actually really depends. On attitude, approach and way of thinking basically.

In 2008 I think is going to be a tough but exciting year. Things haven;t been easy for me lately but it's great to know that I have the life I have now because I would not have wanted to be any other way.

People die, live, breakup, get attached, lose contact and so on. The only true thing you can expect from life is that you can never expect what is going to come next. Appreciate the process as we strive to achieve the end result.

Seeing things happen as life past by, this is all we do. And then at the end we have a funeral with video playing of how our life had passed. I think it's weird how the sum of our life at the end is how we affect others.

We are the sum of our experiences. We are the children of our parents. And we are going to make each day worth living.

I'm a man of my word...

2007-12-02T21:36:00.000-08:00

HAHhaahahahahaHAHHAAHahaHAHHAHAahahaahHAHAHAahahaahahAHHAahHAHAHAHHAHAHAHAhHAHAhHAH

Epiphany

2007-10-27T22:28:00.000-07:00

Its interesting how everything arrives to a certain point for some people, kind of like an ultimatum for yourself. Sometimes I find myself thinking that "everything happens for a reason" in a sense of comfort for the mind but recently I found that it's actually abuse of that phrase.
To focus on things that make you comfortable makes u safe, which in turn makes u scared of failing and in turn make you not take risks.
Failing makes you question oneself whether anot what you did was wrong? But it is good naturally because they say through failure comes greater success.
BUT THE THING IS that if you scared in failing one thing it transcends to all aspects of your life.
Take for an example a kid at school scared of failing maths to disappoint his parents, it becomes he scared to make friends maybe because he scared they turn out not to be what he expects, and in turn becomes a vicious cycle to alot of aspects of his life. That's how I feel but not nesscessarily affects everyone the same way. Doubt actually enforces your beliefs and if it does not means your beliefs are constantly changing as you do a person.
Same for a drug addict, he is an addict because he does not question himself enough, if he did would he not see the destruction he is doing to himself?
But then again all of these statements are flawed in itself.

Working out in horniness

2007-10-14T04:49:00.000-07:00

Does these pics not just want you to work out even more? So that there might be the possibility to bump into girls likeddat in the gym. MUAHAHA!

Ken's Song

2007-10-13T23:53:00.000-07:00

I found this great comic called Ken's Song in my school library, apparently it's kind of like a sequel to Wake Up Your Ideas which i bought years ago. It is a great local comic that follows a man's life through NS and post NS. I don't know if there is anymore of this author's comic but what i see here so far is pretty cool. This was both published around 1992 i think.

more Stufffffffffffffffffffffff

2007-10-09T19:23:00.000-07:00

I wish Singapore had snow. Not the foamy type.

Learning to add texture from painting. This is suppose to be a wolf or dog or something.

Sketches, sleeping and writers room

2007-10-07T10:47:00.000-07:00

Random DOODleeeeeeee. I think I got the inspiration from Strangers in Paradise's Katchoo. To check out that comic, check out the creators blog! http://www.strangersinparadise.com/sipindex.html

YAY! The boy again! This time in colour!

Ed the Clown

2007-10-04T07:47:00.000-07:00

WOW, I just read this amazing comic series by Chester Brown called Ed the Clown. Amazingly freaky, fun, touching, stupid and funny. Check this out if you can. Seriously.

1988

2007-10-04T04:47:00.000-07:00

This Little boy here found its way into my sketches. Kids are really great, especially after that day going with Kaixiang on his photoshoot for Kindergarten and preschool kids for their graduation.

The teachers were really really loud. Fierce that kind of loud.

Alot of that reminded amazingly of the day I had to get my pictures taken for my kindergarten or primary school. It was really really bad experience back then. I am glad Kaixiang at least try to make it easier for them.

It's amazing to look at the kids and realize the things they would or might have to go through to get to your age. As great or horrible the experiences might be I would not want to repeat it if I do not have to.

But it was worth it.

drawing female faces again

2007-09-22T20:20:00.000-07:00

Drawing female faces again. Must focus on delicate details more sia.

I am trying to focus on a realistic female and not over the top FHM style features. Tough to shift the focus i tell you.

Fun Sketch

2007-09-16T11:26:00.000-07:00

Before After

Just sketching for fun. Suppose to be a girl with her coat down. I just realize i have a problem drawing girls. Always ends up looking like transsexuals, no offence to them.

WOW even longer

2007-08-19T03:16:00.000-07:00

Wah its been a long time sia since i last posted, i recently spotted this car at my school area!!!

MAN IT WAS DAMN FREAKING AWESOME.

Then it has this rumbling noise which is even more cool cos it sounded like some freaking gorilla or animal.

Anyway most of my projects are done. It is mostly just some projects that require cleaning up and polishing.

Exams I just took one and tomorrow is another. The end is near man. Wooo Hoo Cries.

WOW its been long

2007-06-14T07:23:00.000-07:00

To those who still read it has been one heck of a half of semester. I learnt more in this semester than I have for any others.

The picture above is from my Advanced Film Production shoot where we shot on film! For me it is a first since the bolex shoot in drama. It was damn tiring man with measuring distances, lighting, blocking and what not. But the film came out as it is and I am happy with what came out but felt alot of stuff can be improved. It was what it was.

The picture to the left is Jowell being Jowell on our reckey for our Documentary Production Shoot. We found an interesting antique shop, therefore from our initial idea of interviewing a toy store owner, it turned to interviewing this antique shop owner.

Interesting and efficient shoot. Fastest one I ever been on.

Came out quite good, kudos to Jeff and Jowell for POst production, I was useless.

The third shoot of mine I do not really have a picture of, because it's with Terence. But we did have to also help out the other team on the same project they helped us and here is a group picture of us. The footage Faried came out with was excellent and we all got Burned for it. I look like char siew man. It was a tiring shoot but I was glad to have crewed on it.

So it is 3 projects down and another 3 to go. Once those 3 are done its over. WOW what a semester.

New school year but everything seems so old...

2007-04-19T04:22:00.000-07:00

New school year and all and left half a year to studying, so weird to return without seeing so many of the familiar faces.

Without seeing Kaixiang and Sean at the FCP room figuring out to export and cursing as if there is no tomorrow.

Not seeing Yvonne and Krystal in the Production Planning room rushing their budget like crazy.

Not seeing Zong Hui in the CG room doing models of private parts.

Not seeing Hazman working out in the gym in his lunch hours.

Not seeing eric going around photographing plants in the weirdest positions possible and constantly reminding me about "feeling".

Not seeing Kwangwei or Yvonne in the Matrox rushing an edit but having totally different expressions on their faces.

Not seeing Kesong hanging around the cage waiting while showing off how his biceps have developed.

And so many other people that are having their presence gone from the block.

Just weird to walk around.

Anyway I cannot put back the tagboard for some reason. Anything just comment.

Seeya arnd.

Small Update

2007-03-25T08:13:00.000-07:00

Hello back for a post.

Nothing much has been happening around, besides just lazing around.

My Modules for next semester seem interesting enough, and I finally got a school day that does not consist of any classes! I cannot believe it took me 2 years to get this day off thing.

I also failed my advance theory, loooks like I am going to have to do it again..

Ok small update only, Byez.

Post IT fair pains

2007-03-13T09:31:00.000-07:00

Been working at the IT fair for 4 days and it has been a pretty weird and tiring experience which I will do it again if I do it again.

Finally got 2 weeks of rest before things start up again and it has been nice since I have taken the day just relaxing and watching dvds.

I can't believe the amount of trash generated at this IT fair I mean it was more like trying to find the floor surfaces under the thick layer of paper.

Ang Lee is about to finish his recent espionage film and really I admire him man.

It is hard to think that a couple of years back he was about to decide to drop out of filmmaking after the failure of the hulk(which I thought was a cool movie despite it being a little typical).

Brokeback Mountain was just going to be another small movie he was going to make that maybe he could contribute to the film world before he took the final curtain call.

But then it ballooned into this phenomenen which brought him to the oscars and right on the top most director list. But still unsatisfied that it did not get Best Picture because it was about a team effort.

One moment you may choose something and life takes you in a totally different direction.

Try to go with the flow I guess.

Long long time since updated

2007-02-23T21:05:00.000-08:00

As my Grandfather wrote calligraphy for his own work. I wondered how long of experiences he had whether good or bad. To reach the point where everything that has happened to him has enabled him to be equipped to deal with love, pain, loss or anything for that matter.

It's just that to come to that point seems really far away to me right now.

How often man do you feel like you really made a shitty mistake but although you learn something but you wished the cost it took you to learn is really no worth it.

But yet you have to bounce back despite you may feel damn tired. But it's also a damn cool feeling.

Been working in school lately to do cataloging work and filling out documents. Nothing much.

Got some work here and there so its pretty good.

Advance theory is tough to study manz.

I really miss you guys because won't get to see alot of people till graduation next year.

REALLY COOL MOVIES OUT AT THIS TIME GO CATCH IT PEOPLE

Heya for those who still read

2006-12-25T07:11:00.000-08:00

Wow I have not touched this blog in quite a long time.
It's weird because it feels so like weird to write again.

So far its been my birthday that had just passed so I am finally 18. LEGAL AGE FOR M18 and the next is R21! Thanks KX for taking pictures and putting up on his multiply site.

Things has been pretty ugly and rough but then its nice to see that everythings somehow works out or something to that level.
Also nice to see people getting together and all celebrating the human race during christmas. Love is something that is universal however its overshadowed by terrorism and all.

People have grown abit like skeptic towards love and all because if hiw we focus on the ugly side of things.

Not only love but also HOPE

Its how you want to see it really. HOPE is not something thats like given i feel, it's painful and difficult and to get to it.
Yet to maintain pure of heart to the end is also hard.

Season greetings everyone.
New Year Wishes to all.

Parents can be bullshit sometimes

2006-10-21T04:53:00.000-07:00

Sometimes parents advice can really be bullshit sometimes.. Not saying that their advice harms you cos they won't want to but its bullshit certain stuff. You got to take it by a grain of salt.
If we were to listen every advice our parents gave we would go up just to be like our parents and would not be such things as "different" generations.

How do you deal with this>? Listen.
Why? Cos you got to. And sometimes you might find some little pieces of information that might work. But if it's bullshit you got to think some stuff or ALOT of it is also bullshit.

We all as objective as we wish we could be. We just want to be right.
So do I

But it's what we as humans are like this.

Maybe it's because why we like the computer so much because it doesn't disagree with us. Not ALL the time at least...

Tengu Shootout is OFF!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2006-10-19T10:01:00.000-07:00

Off?! It is off to the DV fest i think. I hope. Let's see how much crap during post production it took.
NUmber one: voiceovers- needed to do some to make the story understandable but my voice sounded like crap

NUMBER two: PAL? Yea PAL the supposedly format suppose to export in is UNABLE TO but got a way arnd it but there might be degradation.

NUMBER three: CUTTING TO MAKE SENSE!!!!!! I tried as much to edit like I did in loc pro but manz it is hard. You dun wan it to look amateurish BUT IT STILL DOES!!!!!!!!!

Number four: SOUND EFFECTS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Needed tons! To not make it look abit weird and had to add SO MANY FISHING LAYERS TO ACHIEVE ONE SIMPLE EFFECT

Number five: MUSIC!!!!!!!! SO MANY COPY RIGHT ISSUES!!!! Lucky I ended up using all of Steve's music which HELPED SUCH A GREAT DEAL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

NUmber six: Watching it all and saying that it doesn't work making everything shift and cut and tighter and cleaner.

NUMBER seven: WHAT YOU SEE IS NOT WHAT YOU GET. On computer is one look. On television is another look. On camcorder is another looK!

Number eight: WILD SOUND!!!!!!!!! WHY DIDNT I RECORD AMBIENCE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HAD SO MUCH TO EDIt in audio to make it seem like one smooth transition.

NUMBER NINE: Credits?!!!!!!!!! WHAT IS FORMAT!? I FORGOT!!!!!!!!

NUMBER ten: Exporting is a WHOLE load of shit on it's own.

FINALLY thinking that it might not get through the contest based on the fact that it had some glitch with some technicality really pisses me off.
But its out there and its done.
So here to the Tengu SHootout and all that!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
PS: will pass to u guys some time the vid (Kaixiang u betta chill)

Helooooooooooooooo

2006-10-09T02:13:00.000-07:00

Another still from the Tengu Shootout. EVERYONE IS GREAT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Another still

2006-10-08T10:08:00.000-07:00

Another still from the Tengu Shootout video!. Photoshopped of course.
Still editing and STEVE Is giving a great piece of composed music!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
NEeda work needa work need to CONCENTRATE EDITING!!!!!!!!!!!!

THE DEPARTED is coming to Singapore!!!!!!!! SIngapore Dreaming won Some big big award!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! HOOTZ!!!!!!!!!!!!

ANNA NICOLE SMITH WHAT?!

2006-10-03T04:35:00.000-07:00

I was watching Entertainment Tonight and there was this constant mention of Anna Nicole Smith. Her life sounded really complicated and I decided to go to WIKIPEDIA to search about her background, which was when I found this. I guess that's hatred in a nutshell.

Something done

2006-10-02T00:49:00.001-07:00

Well, finally finish the shooting for Tengu Shootout and now is to find a way to piece the stuff that I have together.
I would like to thank VERY DEEPLY to the following people:
Yvonne
Kaixiang
Anthony
ZongHui
Eric
AND MY FATHER Definitely ALL the way!!!!!!

Without them nothing would have worked.
Damn tired and damn pain. Duno why
PEOPLE!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Bye bye

WOW

2006-09-03T06:14:00.001-07:00

I just saw president's star charity and I was WOWED by this particular segment from Singapore Polytechnic where they showed snippets of their musical. It was a little rough but WOW to see Singapore Poly students come up with something soooo original! I mean it concerns with the Superstar phenomenen that is sweeping the nation. The musical is "SUPERSTAR" and it is around beginning of October I think. It delves with the anxiety and insecurities with the sort of Superstar competitions (I think) from the segments I saw on the show.
Catch IT!

THIS IS FOWCKING AWSOME!

2006-08-29T06:27:00.000-07:00

If you have to watch only ONE THING on my blog. It would be this. It's damn shiok by this overseas guy in uni. HIS SHORT FILM IS FOWKING AWSOME!

Online COMIC!

2006-08-28T09:40:00.000-07:00

Comic i drew for fun. Analyse the porn standards.

Wong Kar Wai

2006-08-27T07:41:00.000-07:00

This vid abt Wong Kar Wai at Cannes with 2046! Quite a Q and A.

CHECK THIS OUT

BTS but really rough vid of Blueberry Nights. Supposedly a american debut by Wong Kar Wai. Only allow link.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=PKLZo_SIpAI

From:http://www.david-strathairn.com/film/blueberry-nights.html

Wah liew SEH Welcum to the Suck

2006-08-22T08:04:00.000-07:00

Nothing much up. Finding work to do still.
Did some things I regret too.
Joanne's birthday was great and Happy for her to be one year more mature mentally. I think. I feel bad for not really getting her a gift( I know I know) and am trying to make one but will take a while. Rewatching Seinfeld again and again. Missed 1990s man.
ROBERT RODRIGUEZ ROCKS!
RIAN JOHNSON TOO!!
ANDREW LAU TOO!! ( For Infernal 1)
QUENTIN TARANTINO!!
JOHN WOO!!!

Cleaned up my shot list quite a bit(will not reveal too much here)...
Holiday leh why so boringggzzz.
I want to be back at the CG lab doing huo huo huo huo huossssssssss.

I was thinking about how love works and it really does not.
Weirdly though I feel the term MAKING LOVE is incorrect.
Because if you having sex with a person just for the sake of that is that LOVE?
Maybe at some degree. Though that is vague.
Question and Answers. Whats important is the process of finding it rather than actually found it.
Maybe.
Welcome to the suck.

By the way to show Zong Hui's Transformers in full glory I tried Global Illumination to make it more clean or something.
HEre it is: (duno can tell if got Final gathering or wadever)

LONG LONG return if anyone still reading

2006-08-12T20:48:00.000-07:00

I saw Eric Khoo at the film screening of Short Cuts at the National Museum. I kind of felt weird because all this time I wanted to meet him. Not because to like tell him I am a fan or something but I am to a certain degree. I thought that if I could meet him like maybe somehow his films would make sense to me. Anyway I did not go up to him but my friend did to get his signature.
I admire him for the fact he is making films but I don't really appreciate his pictures although I tried.

The past few weeks in the CG lab is the most fun I ever had. It has great energy and wonderful people there. Tiring and crap but fun.

Huo Huo Huo!

At the esplanade watching fireworks(not reallyh watching) I realised how much people are fascinated by fireworks.

Not much to update lar. My life quite boring.
Sorry to those who come by.

Conflict Diamonds

2006-07-09T02:07:00.000-07:00

DO NOT WATCH IT IF YOU CANNOT STOMACH VIOLENCE AND BODY PARTS.(serious)
This is a video that shows you what is happening in Sierra Leone.
Citizens abused for the benefit of those in power.
Over Diamonds.

An update for the better

2006-07-08T23:45:00.000-07:00

ROCKY IS BACK!!! Check it out at http://movienewz.com/
OR a more direct link but also from that site is http://movienewz.com/vid/Rocky_Balboa_trailer.wmv (Right click Save Target as)
It is a damn cool character lah Rocky.
WOO HOO!
Watching a movie call Remember the Titans. It is damn freaking cool football movie. Challenge between black and white and how they come together to win the football championship. More than a game it is a bonding and that is the best thing to taken away than a win.
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Remember_The_Titans

Half the time we say what we don't feel and feel what we don't say.
To everyone.
Its odd how it turns out.

Delorean

2006-07-06T05:20:00.000-07:00

THis is what I have spent past few weeks doing. Do so long must show show~!

Return of the Bad Updater

2006-07-02T10:01:00.000-07:00

My updating sucks. Sorry to those who frequent here.
Anyway my synopsis sucked according to my lecturer and it sucked hard!!

And to get my mind off stuff I have compiled a probably moviefest list
LOVE movie marathon
-Before Sunrise
-Chungking Express
-The Notebook
-Turn Left Turn Right
-Before Sunset

Horror Movie Marathon
Nightmare on Elm Street
From Dusk Till Dawn
Halloween
The Faculty
Romero's Living Dead Series(a couple of films)
Jeepers Creepers

Action Movie Marathon
Once Upon a Time in Mexico
Rocky( I consider it action enough)
The Matrix
Desperado
Indiana Jones series
El Mariachi

WAH seh I love this set of movies. So what do u guys think?

2006-06-25T19:04:00.000-07:00

I saw this in the video store and got high. WAH LAU this is like the KING of all infernal affairs version. AnD after the brief second, I saw the price and thrown back to reality liao.

Anyway WAH the Shooting over the impersonation of Muo Gan Do is finished.
TIRING SIA!!! Hot sun Hot SUn and RAIN RAIN. Lighting sucks which is who in charge? AH _HA!
Me lor.
I NEED TO LEARN!!!
And there are ton of pepple to thank.
WAHAHAHA poly starting again.
I very lazy in updating.
Need to detox andy lau and tony leung out of my brain.
I very bad updater. Must be wanged.

YAYAYAYAYAY(how often do u feel like this?)

2006-05-29T08:51:00.001-07:00

PARENTS
You nag at me, You irritate me
You cause my blood to boil
Make me feel like digging my head right into the soil
Everytime you make me feel, As if I was ready to kill
You constantly make me lose my temper
Alway embaressing me in front of people.
But you were the ones who gave me life
Held my hand when I cried
Gave me lesson I really hated
Took my sweet time as you waited
Gave me a ride I never needed
And sometimes were never appreciated.
Because I took you guys for granted.

Allo another poem and todae ENDS I/S!!!!! HHOOooooooooooooooooooooo!!!!!
I know what I must do now...
MORE WORK!!!
It hurts so much that they throw us work like this to the point that it does not hurt any longer.

tired

2006-05-27T20:15:00.000-07:00

Wah seh rushed this morning till 4 am to finish all my shots just so Eric can have lighting package.
Shit mans so tired.
Those kobold lights are damn freakin hot sia I mean like on for awhile like going to burn already.

Script is still writing but better finish quick.

MAn I lurve FSV. I really need to take good care of my laptop.

Library released some movies out of the restricted sectioN!!! OMG !!!! Its about time man. But not all movies though.

I think I am gonna try to stay awake and sorry if this post seems sterile cos it is.
WOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Learnt alot of lessons

2006-05-21T06:33:00.000-07:00

I learnt alot of lessons this week and one of them is to know when to shut up and that ANYTHING can be twisted.

I don't blame anyone anymore. Because to blame some is to say that he did something completely wrong and you did none. Which I have done some in my day too.

The bolex was DAMN cool by the way its like loading some sort of machine gun.

Mission IMpossible 3 I caught it with some good company(Zong Hui, Daniel, Eric and Kaixiang).
Their great fun to watch a movie with.

This is one of funnest week I have had in a long time.

This is just smth I wanna write so if you dun bother to read then just skip:

AVERAGE.

I never made the top, or ever stood out
I never had to worry much or ever liked to speak out loud
I never had a girl or gotten into drugs
I feel safe most of the time, in a world on mine own.
I could step out anytime, but I never seem to go.
I know it is not forever or even realistic.
But to be somewhere familiar and be simplistic
It is heaven for me and makes me optimistic
Though I know the unknown may be beautiful I have not dared ventured
But maybe someday I shall enter and have a wonderful adventure
Till then I stay in my little shell
Hoping everything goes smooth and well.

I also duuno why I wrote this.
NEVEr knooowwwww... OOKkkkkkkaee

Hey hey HEY

2006-05-13T04:28:00.000-07:00

HELlloooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo
Waseh Finally done with most of my work last week.
Can't believe I handed them on time and still be satisfied to the minimum with them.
Don't lose momentum of what you are doing and CRASH to the deadline if you have to(which I usually love to do).
What good is landing gracefully to the end?
Well been boring and boring and more boring.

I want to watch MI3!!! Wow really for me is the hardest movie to catch.
Sorry to those guys I wish to catch with but then sorry due to circumstances.

Aiyooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooooo

Film History?

2006-05-04T02:32:00.000-07:00

Aiyoh now in Film History now very relac cos I just finished my presentation!!!!!
Birth of a Nation I hear as Bird of a Nation.
WAHAHAHAHA later still got screenwriting
Cant believe I complaining abt this cos I am studying FILM leh
NOT maths science england or china
3 hrs is the Length of the film called Birth of a Nation!!! BEAT THAT PETER JACKSON!!!
Haiz Mission Impossible III is out must catch leh and then SOME peopl sat want oso dun catch. No la my fault actually.

My worst fear

2006-04-25T08:53:00.000-07:00

I think social awkwardness is REALLY damn scary. But hey man just take it easyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyyy.
I don't know what I am talking about I just haiyah very confused about this new semester everything just seem messed up.

ALL i have now is you my bootiful computer.

Going crazy Ok SEEYa

This was not what I saw.

2006-04-16T11:11:00.000-07:00

I was reading the synopsis on New Line DVD Cyberwars( a.k.a Avatar).
This was what it read:
Starring Harvey Keitel and Scott Glenn. Clayton Price (Glenn) an American government hit man gone astray assassinates a U.S. military leader in Mexico and now on the run he makes a pact with a vacationing couple to help him disappear in the Mexican jungle. What this couple doesn't know is Price's secret past and the fact that the U.S. CIA is quick on his trail led by CIA operative Walter McGrane (Keitel). It is McGrane’s instructions to bring back Price at any cost, dead or alive.

But I did not see all this in the original cut.

This was more close to what I saw which was the synopsis at IMDB:
In the near future in the Asian city-state Sintawan, everyone's identity is recorded in the vast CyberLink. The only way around this is using illegal simulated identity implants (sims). A young bounty hunter who makes her living tracking sims, finds herself the unlikely ally of a police detective who suspects the CyberLink is being perverted for an insidious and deadly purpose.

WOw thats a big change.
I mean its possible to change or take out a character of a movie like Fearless and Michelle Yeoh.
But wow this is a pretty big change man.
But its all about the business so, can't complain.

Watching movies.

2006-04-13T02:54:00.000-07:00

Hey guys I really have been up to nothing much except talking and watching movies.
Movies are really action type like From Dusk till Dawn and more of Robert Rodriguez movies.

Have seen a recent review on Avatar on a website, Avatar was a Singapore Sci fi movie consisting of an international cast.
I have seen the movie before with a couple of my FSV group mates and it was interesting to see Singapore set futuristically but the attempt was not that great.
Though the movie basing only on the dialogue consisted alot of depth the execution of the project was not good.
I could see that the filmmakers really put alot of their effort into it and I hope they will have a chance to remake it.

Brick is another film I have been keeping my eye on. It was introduced to me by Daniel Tan.
The movie from what I have read and seen is really true NOIR. For me the definition of NOIR is as follows:
Really weird mystery
Sexy women who are decieving
A anti hero who is investigating into this mystery.
A unknown figure who holds all power
A guy who helps the anti hero and occasionally has answers.

This must have been a difficult film to promote because it is set in a high school.
Which most people's formula
High school+mystery=Hardy boys.
But it really isn't
Though it will not be screening in Singapore anytime soon(no release date) enjoy the trailer at apple .com(under Focus Features). Or go to wikipedia because it has a few cool links.

Thats about it so make the best of the time you have.

Between Production and Post Production

2006-04-03T20:08:00.000-07:00

Well the Saturday shoot seems to have covered most of the shots I need.
Thanks to Jowell and Kaixiang who was so understanding though they may not have really understood what I was doing.
Post production has not really started as I have to clear out my harddisk before having enough space to load the raw footage.

Happy B_DAE and an End to Preproduction

2006-03-31T07:09:00.000-08:00

First and foremost
HAPPY BIRTHDAY YVONNE!!! Sorry I could not stay but HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!
XIN XIANG SHI CHEN.

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO SEAN TAN too. ANother year older and wiser(please note the word "wiser" is relative, JOKING)

Preproduction comes to an end.
Have finally come to an end of getting an actor(Jowell Tan) to act with me and
Kaixiang to be our camera man.

Worked out something to lessen the shakes of the camera and the rest is up to KX.

Worked out a location for DECENT audio as there are no AUDIO Equipment.

Mostly would be impromtu and relax.

Ok man so here we go!! TOMORROW FILMING STARTS!!!

More sex?

2006-03-29T06:07:00.000-08:00

This is so true, it's Freaky.

Check out the bunny.

Exile

2006-03-23T10:20:00.000-08:00

Heys guys sry I have not responded for so long. But I have read your tags and the tagboard and to respond your messages I have prepared the following comments.
I am not so smart to use reverse psychology.

Ok I have been in exile, nothing much has been happening unless you consider the street sign that my father found and I am using it to conduct heat away from my laptop.

Speaking of laptop for you apple enthusiasts a quick note is that people entering FMS has to buy a apple notebook with quite a good package and alot of support.(Informant: Sean)

Man do I miss the last week of the poly term.

Will try to update more regularly guys and thanks for tagging.

Back to Exile.

I like girls

2006-03-15T02:06:00.000-08:00

Ok I not gay, not even TURNING gay.
Here is a list of pics of girls I like:

I LOVE THE OPPOSITE SEX.
Its just that certain things that I may not be comfortable with but it just certain stories are beautiful.

Today is just another day

2006-03-08T09:04:00.000-08:00

SUnburn a little and EXhausted from yesterday Sentosa outing .
I WOULD LIKE TO TAKE THIS CHANCE TO APOLOGIZE TO THEA FOR HITTING HER ACCIDENTALLY.

Oh my gosh I was so embarresed but I must face up to my action.

Lovely day yet I am in the house all day.

I am so proud of MR Ang Lee. Brokeback Mountain broke down stereotypes and redfined the meaning of love for me.

But I still like girls. Call me.

View

2006-03-05T09:49:00.000-08:00

My father has been talking and some interesting stuff popped up that I feel should be written.

He read in a book that Time may not exist. Then it got me thinking: Well we give a definition of how things age and all that is just things HAPPENING. Randomly things happen and we try to find a pattern within that. It may be essential for us to know this because it may very well be another form of evolution for us.
Imagine if we do accept this new perspective of how time may not actually exist and how various thing are "suppose" to happen e.g people in Singapore have an average lifespan of about 60 years. We may even have the ability to control how fast or slow we want to age.
I do not believe this to be impossible because we can see evidence of things that evolve from totally radical ideas( the earth is round) to small things like how our kidneys are able to remove toxins better compared to people a decade ago due to the resistence we build.

But when you put religion into context it may not fit. From what I know in any religion it is that Superior Being that decides when u should go and not you( People from any religion correct me if I am wrong). But then the Superior Being also gives us a choice which is also known as Free Will so we have OUR choices to make how we percieve things and how you handle such perception.

Also another thing, I recently found that if a government has a tighter hold over country may not be a bad thing so long as it is for the interest of a country.
But it does not mean when a country is prospering that it is a good thing. Comfortability is a weakness that most people have myself TOTALLY included and through conflict there is sometimes progress.
The thing I feel is that certain words are associated to a more negative side which is an important thing to note that we have certain schemata of things that should be overcomed.
And once we know that CONFLICT may not be a bad thing we may help ourselves understand that it actually may help us rethink our values and that the world is ever-changing.
But I do not support OFFICIAL BLOODY DEADLY Wars.

I also find that people take death as a negative thing a little too much. I mean we all know the loved ones who passed on SHOULD be in a better place. And that leaving from this plane of existence to the next should be a happier thing.
I feel that the concentration is too much on LOSING a loved one rather than a loved one MOVING ON.
Again it is about perception.
I am not saying I will feel like this as I still have certain impulses etched into me that I am not certain how I will react to death.
I also hope I have not offended anyone or anything with my views it is just there for viewing and not pinpointing or anything. I respect one and all.

Rotoscoping

2006-03-03T01:16:00.000-08:00

I sketching Before Sunset trailer. Rotoscoping almost frame by frame.

I watched Chungking Express and is very odd because I did not feel as bored as I thought. And FAYE WONG was FANTASTIC. I like Hong Kong during that time period with all those enviroment like not too developed but still concrete jungle.

Ok I think that is all for now.

As I am trying to edit

2006-02-26T03:44:00.000-08:00

I found this frame from the editing of studio production footage. See Eric and Yvonne so cute together? But they ARE NOT!
Ok that's it for now.

Movies

2006-02-25T07:05:00.001-08:00

Some movies I watched that really affected my perception on relationships.
Movies like Before Sunrise and Before Sunset.
Before Sunrise really explored the possibilities of love and more naive thinking.
Before Sunset really does not give you any illusions and grounds you to the fact that the beauty of love between two people transcends beyond marriage.

The odd thing is that people are so worried about dying more than what they do when they are alive.

It is odd how obvious when someone likes someone else it becomes very obvious. How their behaviour becomes more unnatural around the person and they become more energetic, enthusiastic, etc.

I guess it is easier for me to romanticise the idea of being in love than actually being in love. The trouble is that I have seen people in love and it takes certain qualities to do that.

The evolution a relationship is very interesting.
Elements such as:
LUST
ATTRACTION
CARE
ENDURANCE
PAIN
ANNOYANCE
FORGIVENESS
STAGNENT
NUMBNESS
ANGER

Still man I really respect those people in relationship. SALUTE.

This Holiday Season

2006-02-24T23:20:00.000-08:00

My room is a mess
I tried to clean abit but then it seems like just rearrange.

This is after cleaning but then its like still messy clean ah clean

It's sad to know that I am may not be grouping together with the same people next semester.
Even if I wanna quarrel should quarrel with people with I know than people I don't know. Actually I want to learn everything both audio and computer graphics. Maybe I could talk to Sean about it.

Computer Graphics is actually damn fun but must play music while working because it will seem damn tiring if don't have.

I need to find a part time job so if any of you got any recommendations tell me.

Goodbye and good luck T1B3.

Blood on Water vid

2006-02-18T03:34:00.000-08:00

Allo just testing uploading a vid
I think clicking on it shld do the trick. Nothing special just bored after Computer Graphics

HAHAHAHHAAHHAAHAHHAAH

2006-02-11T09:18:00.000-08:00

Odd, I want to delete my previous post but cannot find a record of it here in my editing post section. Look maannn I really not that violent.......................most of the time. Anyway that person has nothing to be feared of cause I don't feel that way anymore.
Abit of that friendship with that person died through that post from my point of view.
Watched this chinese movie called Nan Xiong Nan Di. Wah I really like the seventies it seems to be a nice time to be living in.
Valentine's Day is coming, that should be interesting though I don't really celebrate but I like to see people celebrate.
WAHAHAHAHA I high on music.
K bb

Tired but grateful

2006-02-02T07:24:00.000-08:00

I would like to thank a few people: Jowell, Sean and Thea for helping out with me and Kaixiang's PHOTOSTORY project. It made me believe that people will still help others without expecting monetary rewards(AHEM I treat u lunch another time).
Wah but today is tiring with the photo taking for the people coming to the poly open house. Siaow man is like stand there and now my leg is in extreme pain which is BLOODY FISHING SHIOK.
Well lucky the studio was allowed for Kaixiang and I to use or else we would have something that SEEMED exciting but had to be compromised so much it would lose its initial essence. Of course we still have to do alot more shots but the more dramatic ones are more or less done.
Still got lots of things to do but the pressure is kind of FUN.
Still don't know what to do this holiday if anyone got recommendations tell me.
Tired ah. Shiok.

Title for a undeveloped webcomic

2006-01-30T09:18:00.000-08:00

Title for UNDEVELOPED thing.
Gotta sleep nooooowww. Ok.

Another pic(VERY ROUGH)

2006-01-30T08:07:00.000-08:00

Another picture I drew but I do not really have to draw a cleaner one. Yah.

Post-Chinese New Year

2006-01-29T07:09:00.000-08:00

Wah today is finally past. It is a tough day to get through man. TRUST ME.
Suppose to watch FEARLESS but was a little too late.

I promised to turn in a sketch last week and here it is.
I am thinking of starting a webcomic and hope this gives you an idea how it is going to be like.

It is just a rough sketch so pardon it's crudeness.
Ok man it is tiring to type.

Pre-Chinese New Year

2006-01-22T08:45:00.000-08:00

WAhahaha Reunion Dinner Pic
My Family. It is interesting to go dinner and very very awkward. I don't really look forward to chinese new year.

Notice: I am gonna post something I will be working on. Keep your eyes on this blog on 30Jan.
Hint: It is gonna be a drawing.

Anniversery (A-ga A-ga)

2006-01-19T04:26:00.000-08:00

One year passed since my blog had been up. I thank you guys for sticking with me even with my hiatus. Those who checked regular even when I was not updating much.
The beginning of this blog was neither grand nor glamourous.
To recap:

Friday, November 12, 2004
Inspiration
Hey gotta have some to do this movie.
posted by SPotless @ 7:53 PM 0 comments

U crazy?
Hey Hey Hey and I'm talking to myself....Wellllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllllll
posted by SPotless @ 4:23 AM 0 comments

Some of you may not understand what I was talking about and neither do I actually, not exactly.

And to remember the first two people who had commented on my blog before my discovery of the tagboard:

Pamela

Saturday, June 25, 2005

triskaidekaphobia said...
oh my god u very outdated man..... pls update ur blog!!!! hehe....
2:42 AM

Jowell

Saturday, July 02, 2005

joey13 said...
what the hell is wrong is both of you huh? but "DIE FAGGOTS!!" is a pretty cool line. hehs.-jowell-
6:43 AM

Guys even when I don't reply much to your fantastic comments on my entries. But I thank you for enduring with me for the past year in this blog and in my life.
Thank you.

My very first tablet drawn pic.

2006-01-17T10:04:00.000-08:00

YAY! My very first drawing on a tablet and it is BLOODY fun!
Very nice sensitivity and strokes on this mean machine!
Copyright ah. blah blah blah whatever.

Brokeback Mountain seems like a good film and treats the topic of homosexuality with great respect. I mean if the film is off by abit it might seem fake or too vague. HOORAYs for Ang Lee winning the Golden Globe among very strong competition like Munich(Steven Spielberg) and King Kong(Peter Jackson).
The actors did a fantastic job from what I see from the trailer. Heath Ledger and Jake Gyllenhaal.

Music on the film is rather good and should check it out on Itunes.

I would also like to tell you guys about Cameron Duncan NewZealand filmmaker who died of osteosarcoma at the age of 17. He has made 2 inspiring short films which can be found on the Lord of the Rings extended dvds. He inspires the song "Into the West" from the ending credits of Return of the King. It affects me alot because I am now at the same age as him then and I am kind of doing the same stuff he is only at a much lower level.
For those who have heard of this from me ta-han abit and for those who have not go check it out at wikipedia by typing his name.
He will not be forgotten.

Another inspiring filmmaker is animator Terence Walker who has made a short animated film called Understanding Chaos. He has made the entire film himself from animation to dialogue and music. You can check out his blog/site at http://www.studioartfx.com/

Life only comes by once(Maybe).

SO long and thanks for all the FISH

2006-01-12T08:50:00.000-08:00

The idea just struck me that my grandparents will actually die. I mean I do know but the idea of it becomes more real to me. Especially I see how my grandfather is having the flu and all on the bed with a jacket due to the cold weather now.
I think is like so sad yet empty.

Anyway

I got what I need and nothing more
I am a lucky person....now.

My few frustrating thoughts

2006-01-07T04:29:00.000-08:00

Have you ever felt like your family driving you *FISHING* crazy and it is not rebellion on your side but purely their doing?
And then to top it off they don't admit their mistakes because they are your superiors?
AND to add to that fact you cannot really say they are whatever because they have supported you since young gave birth to you and blah blah blah.
Then you think about it and you fear you might be the one at fault as they have done so much for you and you are angry towards them for something.
Yah I cannot really say names here as if found might be incriminating towards me.

Anyway just forgetting.
DELETING MEMORY *ZZZZZZZZZZ****************************************
Memory process command: DELETE COMPLETE
REBOOTING.....
ON LINE...

HeyBack
Anyway above is the drawing I did previously with alterations. I got the idea for the color of the sky from looking outside my window.

I like the idea that I never really go out with a girl because of the fear of anything happen with that.
I will take ANY risk in the world except that.'
Either this is the reason or I just cannot find a girl
Anyway I like it this way and now my computer is my wife.
I mean it provides me with needs and all that.
Movies too (sexy women and action)
Just expect the worst of life and then if something bad happens it will seem normal and if something nice happens then it just seems better.

Hehe compensating posts

2006-01-01T02:59:00.000-08:00

This is something I painted with my mouse. Do you guys know what it is? I scared it may too unreadable or too vague. Post comments as HARSH if required.

COMPLETE NEW YEAR RESOLUTION

2005-12-31T22:45:00.000-08:00

My complete list:
- Making a cool short video
- Refine my editing skills
-Workout to keep even fitter
-Write a short essay on mythological stuff
- Study on Philosophy
-Read MORE books (novels or anything)
-Start earning my own money when I have the time as much as possible
-Refine FLASH animation skills
- Learn and make model miniatures and dioramas
- Stop being so *AHEM*
- Stop thinking about *AHEM*
- Make contacts so that if I go into industry got people to work with

I said all this stuff here and there but I guess this is the complete.

2006

2005-12-31T19:01:00.000-08:00

New year with new opportunities and new mistakes. We should be more aware of the world around us.
Check this movie out, MUNICH:

Trailer-http://www.apple.com/trailers/universal/munich/

Information about the incident-http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Munich_%28film%29

Ok man have a good 06!!!!

Update

2005-12-25T03:59:00.000-08:00

In the beginning....

This is where I am now..

NOW...
Lemme tell u something ar
Something that will change your perspwective A bout something then will make brain go spin spin..

I made a observation about something may be boring but ....

Ok I was out with my family during christmas eve for dinner and here are my familys' physical behaviour
My Brother concentrates on his food when he eats and when he takes a break he looks forward

My Mother keeps looking at our food and how we were eating

My father concentrates on his food

Really very interesting but I have not decipher..

And MEERRRRYYY CHRRISSSTTTMMMAAASSS
If i have not been doing the proper christmas greetings because I don't really celebrate it.

ME WAANNNA A do a few things
-Study philosophy
-Make a wicked sci fi short video
-Find peace within smth smth
-AND MOST OF ALL I WAANNNNNNNNNNNNNNNNAAA CONFFEEESSS THAT I LOVE.....
to sleep
Okokokokokokokokokokokokokokok

I love life (seriously)
Waking up without having to worry much
Going to sleep without fear of bombs(well not really)

But I have been having some really cool dreams (Rated NC-16 even PG)
Something.. about T1b3 and then returning....
I don't really remember.

Ok Signing out now.

Photos 1-a

2005-11-30T21:24:00.000-08:00

Sean drinky

People together

Ah Hui asking questions

Anthony and Joanne(hehehehe)

Wasting time

2005-10-01T00:07:00.000-07:00

I have had certain "discussions" with my friends on the concept of "wasting time". They do feel that when you plan out your schedule and achieve them you are then not wasting time. To make yourself so packed with things to do that you will not be at any point just sitting around doing nothing.
But I don't agree that it should be this way. My past week I have not done too much stuff but I spent some time with my father, I just like talk to him as we go out to lunch and just being in the same house he's in. I spent some time with my grandparents, my grandfather telling me how I should improve my chinese and my grandmother warning about the fact that I have to tap my ez link card before I get off the bus or I would get charged the full fare. I mean I did not plan this stuff in my schedule I was just around the house. I slept on my bed and looked up the sky and saw how beautiful the clouds and how they have a slight distinct color and would be a great day if it was not for the bloody hot weather.
I also had a thought that I had better relax more before I have to go back to the "ON" mode when the new semester.

On another topic people sometimes overstep their boundaries between being frank or being offensive.
Some people can give great critical comments but don't really know how to give maybe a suggestion or an alternative. That is why I feel that film critics are only doing half they just critic. It's good to listen to these critics but I personally feel you should not use it as a reference.

I guess that is all.

Camp At East Coast Park(Part 2)

2005-09-25T23:04:00.000-07:00

Ok so we go to east coast park, we start setting up the tent and stuff. I think we were pretty lucky having strong wind because it would somehow lift some areas of the tent(life a parachute) and makes thing easier to work with. So when we are done with the tent, The guys wanted to go rent bikes and Pamela and her b/f wanted to go for a walk. Therefore I stayed behind and guarded the barang barang. It was great just sitting there with strong wind and seeing the sea view with not too strong a sunlight. Made me think alot as I waited for quite awhile. I felt like I was reformatting my mind. Hahahaahaha hmm. Then when Kaixiang and Joanne came back first, it was a pretty cute sight seeing Joanne sitting in front while kaixiang is riding the bike and them pulling to a stop. I then went nearer to the beach and felt it. "IT". Hard to explain the feeling though, like appreciating life. You know when you feel like life sucks and everything is just wrong and everything you do seems to turn to disaster? I felt the complete opposite. Beauty, Cherish and all that stuff. Of course it lasted for about a minute. When the sudden thought of ants came to my mind and when I suddenly realised Kaixiang was behind me.
Still to be continued...

East Coast Park (Part 3)

2005-09-25T08:20:00.000-07:00

Ok so we then decided to start the fire so the entire tedious process of lighting up and all that starts.Leave it to Kaixiang and Anthony to start a fire, they are good at what they do. Ok so then Eric comes and so does Jowell. Jowell owes 12 dollars, so we tried to dump him in the sea (of course removing all the things that do not take too well with water). Boy was that though. And of course Sean and Thea comes together and then Zong Hui comes.
Had a great barbecue and food. Filzah and her b/f came with cookies!
GOOOODDD cookies. Ok later the stuff I block out already okok Good bye and have a good one.

Camp at East Coast Park(Part 1)

2005-09-22T04:57:00.000-07:00

I firstly went to Yvonne's place to see if I could help out carrying anything to the campsite. When I reached there the place was like at a chinese restraunt: Joanne is Kaixiang's assistant, Yvonne in charge of the Kitchen, Anthony doing some cutting and Kaixiang massaging the chili onto the fish. Then Pamela came along with her boyfriend and Aisya came too. And we went to east coast Park walking and carrying those stuff(which btw is BLOODY heavy).
To be continued...
If this post is lousy, it is because I am tired

Rambling thoughts

2005-09-15T14:22:00.000-07:00

I had a thought today... People tend to do things that may seem like nothing to them but are actually are hurtful to those they do to. And you cannot really confront these people, because even you yourself may not be sure if you are oversensitive yourself. I think we can try to take it in because you are unsure of yourself and even perhaps get into a conflict perhaps over something as trivial as u being oversensitive. Because when you are in a conflict, you do not really think, you are more likely to be venting. And when you vent, you tend to say things you may not want to say and cannot take back. That's why the thin line between frank and hurting is really thin, I must be careful and so should certain people.

Another thought is that when you are in a group of people, I realise that certain people do get left out of the conversation. Maybe they do not feel like talking but at least as friends we should make an attempt in inviting him/her into the conversation. Give him an opening, rather than him interrupting accidentally just to try to get into the conversation.

My final thought is that when we are in a bad mood or something, we should not vent it out on others by treating them badly. Of course you have the right to be this way because perhaps something happened which affected you negatively and you have the reflex to be emotionally cold and angry to those around you. Of course they are your loved ones and friends and they will understand you. But think about it, it is rather unfair to them. If you are feeling bad because of something someone said, you perhaps will feel bad, but don't treat your friends in a way that is affected by perhaps your anger because he/she was not the one who hurt you.

Sponges are good at absorbing but if you squeeze them harder, it will let it all out. Do not unleash it.

People who take shit are in other terms, cleaning. They are trying to keep the enviroment clean. What do you have to say about the people who give shit?

Sleeping now.

An Alternative to a JoB

2005-09-13T20:24:00.000-07:00

Now Start post. I have been erm.. stoning, sad to say. My computer is dying out on me.
Anyway I thought of starting a mini video project. Nothing finalised yet. So far it is just a two man show: Me and Kaixiang. The script has not really been fleshed out yet but got the storyoutline almost done.
Here is a synopsis:
Story of a man who loses his brother to a serial killing. He sets out to recover himself from grief by joining a SOS group( helps coping with loss). He then meets a young man from the group and becomes good friends with him. He then becomes like a second brother to him. Things seem to be improving for him, he finds out by accident that this young man may be the serial killer that killed his brother. He then sets out to confirm his hunch and found out that it was most probably true. Now all that is left is to get a confession out of the young man. He is conflicted because this young man means so much to him and helped him through a difficult time.The young man then finds out also that the man knows he is a serial killer but was knocked out by the guy himself. When the serial killer comes to, he tries to instigate the guy to murder him having a plan in mind. The guy himself is conflicted within between his morals and anger. The killer dials for the police in secret and frames the guy for trying to kill him. The guy accidentally makes a wrong move and was shot in the head by the police. Now no one knows the serial killer's true identity and he gets to walk away free.
(This is a first outline)

Ok guys I am trying to get help to do this short video.
I need:
-A make up artist
-Another Production Assistant
- Script Supervisor

Actually I need as much help as possible. I am not sure what else help I need. But any moral support or help from you guys would be great!
Thanks very much.

RIghrightrightrightright

2005-09-09T18:39:00.000-07:00

Holidays...FINALLY. Making a list of stuff to do. Hung out with Sean, Daniel and Kaixiang, it was quite fun. Happy Birthday to Anthony!! Hope you like the e-card I sent you. Yvonne updated about the class chalet thing. Hm sounds.....exciting. Hope to see lots of action there. Wish everyone a good holiday and do what u want to(nothing illegal or immoral).
oK>.

I Am BAckkkkk

2005-08-29T07:37:00.000-07:00

Well here I am blogging once again. Today had audio test. Haiixxxx. Today had editing. Haiiiiixxxx. Today I did this, said that and did more stufff.
Counting down to holidays! YAYY!!!! EVERYONE just hang in there! Want to collapse oso collapse. My com kinda crash. Anyway all stuff gone. Lucky got a couple of good friends like Kaixiang helping me. I just wanna officially apologize to people. Joanne for jumping her during the time she was resting before audio test. For treating Pamela like.... erm ..... Too long to explain. I am bothersome alot of times so you guys should tell me. If not how do I improve siah. Me kinda blur too(becos me the typical Ahem guy).
Ok liao I think that's about it.
Long week ahead and little sleeping left to do.

My sketches

2005-08-13T20:34:00.000-07:00

Thsi was using photoshop CS, some of the shadow effects were achieved through pure luck. And the wings are not done yet.

A picture from my sketchbook. The Primary Stage.

The answer is not CLEAR CUT

2005-08-11T21:02:00.000-07:00

I have discussed with my good friends Kaixiang, Athalia and Lung Chieh about relationships. I have come to a comclusion that there is not one answer to any questions conerning relationship. Problem is that now it makes things ALOT more difficult. Well I read Anthony's blog and find that it requires people hormones to be high to be together in some way. If we do not have some of this sort of hormones driving us we would just all be sitting around on our asses waiting for something to happen right>? But the thing is what you do with these hormonal feelings? Two people must connect beyond that( if I am off topic Anthony please dun mind because I am abit blank now).
Projects have been piling up lately and feel that I should be aware of not over-prioritizing(is there even such a word?) any particular project. It is crucial so that I do not affect others who are actually putting so much effort too. Just because you are busy does not mean others are not. And if others are putting so much of their heart in it, it would not be right for me just to shift my focus onto some and not all.
I really feel that some people may have been rubbed the wrong way by some stuff I have done accidentally. Well man there's nothing I could do. Pai seh man sorry.

Happy Early Birthday Joanne!!
Sorry to make you do project on your B-day.

The thing is about two people

2005-08-09T21:59:00.000-07:00

From the movie "Before Sunrise", Ethan Hawke mentioned that he sees love as an escape for t2 people who does not know how to be alone ( apologies for my laziness to apply the APA citations). How true is that statement? Do we fall in love because we cannot tolerate the thought that we have to spend the rest of our lives by ourselves? Or is it a natural human instinct to reproduce and continue the family lifeline? Or is it the beautiful notion of two people, meeting each other, falling in love, fated to be together and living together through sickness and in health till death do they part?
Obviously from my blog u can see I have never fallen in love or been in or am in any relationships. Therefore I post the question to all people out there who had the experience to tell me how do you know if you are in love.
P.S Unless the answer is "You just know it." Please feel free to tag on my tagboard.

FORGOT!!!

2005-07-29T22:38:00.000-07:00

IMAGES FROM MOVIEWEB.COM

Superman

2005-07-29T22:17:00.000-07:00

Latest video diary from Bryan Singer from bluetights. net
here are new shots of Brandon Routh as Superman.

Ghost rider

2005-07-29T07:24:00.000-07:00

Cleaned up the trailer image as much as possible. The teaser showed mostly of Nicholas Cage but not the possessed rider. Pretty neat font.

How?

2005-07-27T03:14:00.000-07:00

How do two people actually end up together? Attraction? Obligation? Just having fun? Physical? Mental? It is odd how many people end up together despite the theory of the RIGHT ONE. I do think it is a combination of when, where, who, how and why. Why guys can get girls is because we put a false front in front of them(whether it is to a large or small extent). True love can never be found but only NURTURED(I think). How does a guy find true love? Is it a combination of the physical and the metaphysical? How does a guy know whether a girl likes him? By the amount of physical contact? Some girls are just more open and therefore guys may just have perceptual accentuation. But isn't that what makes love so interesting in it's own way? The chase, the clues, the frustrations, the pain, the excitement and so much more? How do you even know if you are in love? Is it truly just a feeling? An unspoken bond?
Annnnnndddd Brrreeeaaaaattttthhhhheeeee......
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh..............................................
Yes Joanne you are right. I think too much.

V for Vendetta movie trailer pictures

2005-07-22T23:31:00.000-07:00

Preview new pics from the "V for Vendetta" movie trailer.

New Chatterbox

2005-07-22T09:24:00.000-07:00

It's at the bottom of the page. Okkkk then

Haha Posting a second time in the same night

2005-07-14T09:15:00.000-07:00

I hate handphones, I mean like in the past when there is a awkward situation people actually face each other but now they can use their handphones to act busy. Some of my old schoolmates are ASSHOLES! Yeah they treat me nice when they feel like it, and they just make fun on and on. Why can't people just STUFF IT! SHIT!
Hahaha I'm ok.
Really.
I guess.

It used to be so easy....

2005-07-14T08:37:00.000-07:00

In the past I use to find life so easy. I just had to finish my homework, hang out with my best friend, check out my regular sites, exercise, catch my regular favourite shows, pass my examinations, put up with some people, get bullied by my class guys and take a peek at the girl I like from a distance.
Now it's like I hang out with a group of friends. Hahaha. I left the group yesterday to watch a movie. Mind-numbing experience. Man I really AM irritating. I am even tired of myself. Because I know I will say stuff that I don't mean. I do stuff I hate. I make choices I don't want to choose.
Sat in that movie theatre and felt just numb. I keep getting these signals of hostility from some people. I wish to be senstive yet confident. But what the heck ....

Wow Man..

2005-07-08T05:37:00.000-07:00

Mind's been a little off lately. It has been a interesting week for me. You see people differently when you just take a step back and listen quietly. Founder's day is coming soon, I think this is the only thing that has been pushing me.
I really find that love is not about finding someone who can take care of you but someone you can take care of. Concerning what I would do for the one I love, I don't think I really know right now and I may never really know. What good are feelings when they are kept inside?

Love

2005-07-02T04:16:00.000-07:00

Mannn something that simple can be soooooooo complicated. Love is nuts but yet makes sense to those who are in love. But how do u know? Anyway I would settle for "like" right now. FOCUSSSS MANNN. Losing weight due to stress. Good. Damn good. Thanks to my class people for being so opened minded to all the crap I say. Wow man the stress I am getting is damn shiok! I think it is great that everyone in my class is so "ON". What would you do for a person you like? For me, I will....................

ARGGGGGHHHHHH!!!!

2005-06-25T22:56:00.000-07:00

Went all the way to Jowell's place and it's freakin cancelled!!! Some audition...
Shit I am so freakin pissed right now, but I cannot blame anyone cause the talents are doing it for free and they have a choice. My team members tried their best. The only person I can blame is myself for not having better organization of my team and talents.
Well got more time for other work at least..

2005-06-25T03:49:00.000-07:00

Goin to start on a new film project, my group has titled it "Me like May". It's about a psycho chasing a girl and sumthin happens. Workload is managable(I think). Starting my routine in the gym and jogging. Hope to do it daily. Really missing my old friends from secondary school. Having auditions for my new film project tomorrow, it shall be interesting or disasterous.
Feeling really bad about teasing Pamela, maybe I should apologize....
Well then. Good day.

2005-06-23T05:07:00.000-07:00

I have the projects just pouring in, homework just piling up. But I begin to feel the adrendelin begin to pump through my veins. Although I have decide to leave dragonboat, my quest for physical fitness has not ended.. I have found a form of martial art called Keysi which at an advanced stage can teach you to fight a few people. It is the same martial art used in Batman Begins. Cool huh?
My class founder's day dinner is around the corner and despite the fact that the price for a ticket is DAMN FREAKIN OUTRAGEOUS, I still want to see some of the teachers and friends and some people.
It is time to unleash my full potential within......